Sometimes life doesn't go according to plan. In fact, life rarely goes according to plan. I can wholeheartedly attest to this.
Let's start at the very beginning. It is a very good place to start. I applied to the UVU Nursing Program for the Fall of 2009. I didn't get in. Then this past December I lost my job. Because I lost my job I decided to take a semester off and just focus on finding a job to work and earn money for the Fall semester. I was lucky to find two great new jobs. A few days after starting both of my jobs, my Grandpa passed away and I had to take a couple days off for funeral/family stuff. Within a short time of my Grampie's passing, my Gram's health started failing and I moved in with her to help her. Between helping her at night, taking care of my nephew in the mornings, and working in the day I was averaging about 4 hours of sleep a night for about 2 weeks. Gram died a month after Gramp and I had to take more time off of work for more funeral/family stuff.
A few weeks after all of that happened I was talking to my mom about life and how nothing goes as planned. If my life had gone according to my plan, I would have been in the hardest semester of nursing school while I had been living with Gram and taking care of Baby Em. I would have had to miss lots of school and I would have been sleep deprived and emotionally unstable for whatever school I did make it to. I would have had to pay for nursing school without having a job (which could have meant taking out some nasty loans). I would probably have been unable to help out with Gram or Em as much leaving a lot to my mom.
But life didn't go how I wanted. I didn't get into the program. I lost my source of income. People died, babies were born, life went on and I STILL LIVED. I got myself together, put trust in the Lord, and carried on. Now I feel like I am on the right path headed to where I should be. I don't have complete and perfect faith yet...if I did, I'd never worry again. But I now know for a fact that things happen for a reason. There is no doubt in my mind that I am being taken care of (even if I have a hard time accepting the help).
So my current life plan: accept where life takes me. It works better that way. Now if only I could feel that way about finding the perfect man...
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4 comments:
I can't decide if I like your pictures or your words better. they're BOTH so good! Please tell me you had to...you know edit this and like.. go through multiple drafts 'cause if thats just you writing off the top of your head...gah!
Golly you have such perspective and I didn't even know it. That made me think some deep thoughts, and now I'm thinking CRAP whats not going to go according to plan next in life!? but really, good post.
Also stop with the gorgeous man picture. Its too much for me to handle!
ps. speaking of that gorgeous man you've seen star trek right? cause if you haven't that sorta needs to be near the top of your to-do list, and I can help.
pps. sorry I talk too much. or in this case, type too much.
It's crazy how life works. You feel like your running through the dark at the time, but then you look back and connect the dots and realize everything happened for a reason. Love it.
If I've learned one thing in the past year, it's this..."Heavenly Father's timing really can't be beat." That saying...trite though it may be...has got something to it..."Let go and let God."
It does seem that life gets to have its own way and doesn't actually go as planned. Those little bumps in the road are what make life interesting, and sometimes they are there for good reasons. We're not supposed to expect everything to go the way we plan and if that means heading in a downward spiral sometimes we just have to go with it to see where it takes us. I'd say life would be pretty boring if everything went the way we expected it to. I'd say those things happened so that you were ready for what was ahead, so that you could help with Gram and watching little Emerson.
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